My Journey through the HCG protocol

I’m a little nervous about starting the protocol. My best friend Renee says it’s totally in my head. And she’s absolutely right. It’s the years of habitual emotional eating that has me thinking, “can I really do this?” and more importantly, “I am really going to miss the one thing that comforts me!”

So I’m just counting down until my cycle is over so I can start the protocol.

I am waiting on the bacteriostatic water to arrive, which was shipped yesterday. Hopefully, everything will get here in time for me to start the protocol right away.

After all of this prepping and anticipation, I just want to start and get on my way to a slimmer and healthier me.

I have been harassed by my best friend to take Before shots of myself. As it is, I’m awfully shy in front of the camera. But I will force myself to do so before the protocol. I promise.

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Okay! my bbf keeps telling me to take the “before” photos…and I finally did it. But it is quite depressing and frustrating to look at these photos. Why? Because I am very overweight in these photos. I mean, what is up with the bulging flabs under my arms? That’s gross! Muffin tops are way cuter than this. And my knees are ridiculously pudgy. argh! I just want my cycle to be over so I can get on the protocol!!!

The dreaded "before" shot of me before the protocol

This is pretty darn bad!!! notice how my ankles can’t come close together in a natural standing position?

Side view of the "before" shot of me

Here is me 3 years ago, before I got pregnant with my 2nd child. This photo, by the way, prompted me to lose weight because I thought I looked chubby.

This is me 3 years ago before I tried to lose some weight; I remember I was on a diet and exercise regiment to lose 30 lbs.

I still need to get a good scale that reads in ounces. Only ones I’ve found at Target are the ones that read in 2 ounce increments. I suppose that will do.

I am guessing I’m pushing 230lbs. right now. If not, I’m definitely over 200lbs. This means, to reach my goal weight of 145, I have almost 100lbs to go!!!