My Journey through the HCG protocol

okay. So I know my cycle will end soon. Perhaps in just a few short days I will be done with it. Although I’m nervous AND excited about starting the protocol, I have been secretly delightful thinking about what kind of food I will be stuffing down my mouth during the 2 loading days. My husband treated the kids to Foster Freeze today. As the kids savor their chocolate sundae cups, I was thinking to myself, “hmmm, that’s what I’ll have during my loading days” and secretly smiled a little. Before long, I caught myself running down a list of calorie-rich foods that I must add to my loading days.

The thing is, I’m a habitual emotional eater. Food is my savior. It’s extremely comforting and I love how accessible it is. If I feel lonely, stressed out, frustrated, angry, sad, or even happy, I can always count on treats in my cup board to mitigate the negatives and magnify the positives.

So a big part of the obstacle for me is the separation anxiety from my favorite emotional companion. What am I going to do without it? And what if bad habits die hard? Even if the HCG suppresses the hunger, my fingers might just subconsciously reach for a candy bar or steal a morsel or two while I’m cooking.

Only time will tell. I am positive about the prospect of success, though. My best friend told me I must not be negative about it. Otherwise, I’d just set myself up for failure. Self-fulfilling prophecy, right? So I have been telling myself it is possible for my body to become slimmer and trimmer. It is possible for me to succeed throughout the protocol. And I am surprisingly optimistic and positive about going on this diet despite the fact that I’ve tried dieting all of life and have struggled with food issues ever since I can remember. I don’t think it will be an easy journey but I do think it’s possible. Why? Because so many others have been successful and they are my inspiration that I can do it too.